I see too many posts like this and it is incredibly sad. I empathise, I'm nowhere near as invested as I once was and I was obsessed too. I still love the club and always will but it's apathy I mostly feel now. Pound for pound in ticket price at least, Tottenham must be one of the worst if not the worst club to support and ENIC have been a catalyst for it.
Pay more than any other club's fans and in return you can have mid-table shite, regular beatings from rivals especially away, AWOL cup final displays, clueless managers who goad you when Spurs score, and the odd year where you get to make the numbers up in Europe. Where's the buzz?
There's no hope of winning anything (for the last time, we are NOT winning the Europa League even if we somehow win the SF), we don't sign exciting players anymore, we show no sign of being able to gain even the expected odd win at huge rivals (once in a generation if you are lucky). Most clubs have one of the above to some relative extent and if they don't they don't get charged literally thousands of pounds in return for just meandering in a division with no ambition whatsoever to improve that. Building a new stadium, a training ground and a poxy F1 collab does not offset this.
To those of you who go to every home and (especially) away game, you have my admiration and one day I really hope you still have front row seats for any success if this ENIC nightmare ever ends one way or another.